I have thought a lot about the illusion of control when it comes to life. In theory, the idea makes sense. I know I don’t control anything. The world is just as its meant to be and it is just waiting for me to react in a way I see fit. The world is waiting to see if I fight or flee. It doesn’t care if I feel cheated by the choices presented in front of me. The world just is.
But in practice, my nature makes me want to fight this idea. It wants to blame the world for cheating me out of the things I wanted (or thought I wanted) on more than one occasion. And it’s foolish but I’ve mostly lived that way in the past 20+ years of my existence. And I am sure a lot of you out there live this way, too.
Sometimes I wonder what it must be like to see the world through an enlightened perspective. To be in a position to easily let control go. That’s why I particularly liked listening to Aisha Tyler’s interview with actor Mehcad Brooks on her Girl on Guy podcast. He talked a bit about his near-death experiences that taught him to let go of the illusion of control.
I am envious of the insight he has gained but I also understand that I shouldn’t think that I need some major life change or tragedy to make the decision to let go. And I also understand that I am embarking on a tough challenge. But it is something I want to take on. It is ironic though how letting go seems to be such a difficult thing to do.